The truth about life...

Change...

2006-03-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

With just 8 more days to go man... then i suppose i will be a free man again... or should i say the real world would be here... it could be good or bad... after being in the army for 2yrs and 2 months... it brings back lots of memories, yeah well i gonna miss the days lah... but i look forward to the oncoming days... we shant look back all the time... we could juz think back but look forward...

Change the way you think about change... Izzit a time for change? many ppl are very afraid of change, i'm included... But we have to change ourselves, in order to survive... survival of the fittest... one should try to change themselve according to the environment...

6 things I see about change,

1. Most people change juz enough to get away from their problems but not enough to solve them...

2. most people want to change their circumstances and improve their lives instad of changing themselves to improve their circumstances...

3. most people do the same thing the same way and expect different results...

4. Most people are willing to change not because they see the light, but because they feel the heat...

5. most people are unwilling to pay the immediate price of change, therefore, they do not change and pay the ultimate price...

6. most people see change as a hurtful thing that must be done, instead of a helpful thing that should be done...

Well thats what i see about change? hope u see my light and change the way u think today... =)

2nd chance...

2006-02-18T12:22:00.000+08:00

Is there 2nd chance? In life there is 2nd chance to alot fo stuff... Its juz that we never grab hold of it and juz let it slip thru our fingers... Thats why ppl say opportunity knocks once... But this second opportunity is always around us... Perhaps we didnt realise it... So let us juz try to find them bah... =) Hope u have a good time finding it... Its part and parcel of life... =)

My Days

2006-02-12T19:47:00.001+08:00

9 More Working DaYs...

31 More AbsolUte DaYs...

Wait for me... I'm coming out soon... =)

My path...

2006-02-09T20:21:00.000+08:00

Oh well today left 34 days, thats so longggg... So u think its quick huh 34 days, no way man, its not so easy!!! 34 days its like haiz, i dunno how to tell u lah... Oh well lately, i'm gonna take on a journey, i would call it... I hope i have taken the right path, u might never know whats gonna happen... But i think, i'll juz go ahead with it, i've been thinking of it once in a while, but i didnt really tot of it until lately, my cousin told me abt it... So oh well now it seems like this dream of mine could juz come true... However recently, i dunno why this flame seems like dying off... so now basically i'm in a state of confusion... I"m so lost man, so so lost... Should i walk that path or dont? I'm really confused... Going to ord liao means i gotta find a job... I'm interested in looking for a decent and nice job, can give me more exp at the same time earn money... I need to pay off my instalments... yes yes i admit, i'm burnt of by my bike instalments, argh dont mentioned that again, gotta mention abt it if not ppl will always ask how come u always want money or seem to be in debt? haha oh well thats life eh, 1 wrong decision leads to more... Hence i'm keeping my bike, get the picture? haha =)

Oh well 2006 seems like tough start eh? I dunno, juz feel that lah... haha yupz... but i will always brace myself for action haha... thats me always eh? brave the world... haha i hope... =)

2006-02-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

39 More DAYS to FrEeDoM...

S for Singlehood

2006-01-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

I've found the sad truth that she is attached... Hmm oh well, now its gone, time to find another one i guess... Happy says that maybe i scared her off, yeah i guess so bah, i'm always kinda scary in this type of stuff... its rather weird lah, everytime i try to get a girl, they will get a bf suddenly or in the process of liking another guy... Hmm guess its either my prob or i'm damm suay... Oh well now i'm single again, i was anyway... =( i mean i dunno lah, i've really did my best... happy said i tried too hard, perhaps i guess... oh well CNY is here means V day is coming liao... Another year of lonely V day, that will be as old as my bday haha... 20 yrs.. Gotta make it a grand celebration for 20 yrs of singlehood haha... But i try to remain hopeful bah, i wish...

What have I done, haiz...

2006-01-21T01:28:00.000+08:00

So SAD man... I was suppose to meet her after her work today... I didnt make it in time to catch her on the train and she went home liao... I'm such a loser... I hope she aint angry with me (though she sms me that its okie), i gotta feeling that she is angry or what... I dunno lah, maybe i'm too sensitive liao... But i'm glad that i managed to call her lately and talk to her... Now i'm feeling damm sad lah, i really dunno what was i thinking... I should have waited there for her to knock off... =( why why why did i go late!!! i tot her bus to reach tiong bahru will be quite long... but i was wrong... =( What have i done? Damn disappointed of my judgement...

Forgive me girl...

59 more days...

2006-01-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

59 more days from today, i have to tolerate army shit... Everyday waking up at 6am... Doing 5BX which is stupid, to me personally... Doing shit work, listening to higher crap orders... Coming back on weekends and rest days to do duties... Doing overnight duties... I have enough of this man... I juz tell myself i have 59 more days to endure, then i can get out of this mess i'm in... Finally i see pink... Yeah i know how Jin Wei feels now... No one is gonna order me ard... I rather work outside, any work outside is paid much much more that $560 / MONTH... i suspect even bangla workers get more than me... They enjoy their work lah!!! They chose this job, but i didint... But however there are gains lah... Friends, fitness, err experiences, memories, many more... that is if we see the bright side of it... =) Okie lah 59 more days, hope the ppl wont bother me and my friends liao, we have served enough... thanks we can go now, lead a new life... Hopefully when i'm out, there will be things left for me to do... =)

Love forever... Love is free... =)

2006-01-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today went shopping... bought new shirt and shoes... no money liao, but haha they were sponsored by my parents... haha but i'm still broke, next week should be going shopping haha... CNY coming liao and i haven bought anything man, damm sianz... Meng say i've to wear bigger shirt, if not i look so skinny coz girls wont like... See lah, now i've to go buy bigger shirt liao, luckily today happen to have shops at queensway there, thats why can buy some...

Lately gottta know a girl, she is quite nice i feel, nice looks and happy personality... Kinda like her, but then dont wanna get too close or too buggy if not she will be scared and run away... haha always the case rite... oh well i feel hmm okie kinda happy lah, coz its been a long time since i like someone... but the past juz bugs me with bad experience... the funny case in my love life is that, its always one sided for me, maybe most of the r/s of the whole world is like that lah... Thats why i always feel kinda sad lah, its like oh this could be juz another girl that i like... It sucks lah, u wont understand man... V day is coming liao, haha another yr huh? I remb last yr there was this girl, i gave my very all into the r/s (we were not gf/bf yet then)... but in the end she left for another better looking guy hahaha... funny aint it, everytime u judge ppl by looks but in the end u are the one that is judge by people... Thats the truth abt life lah, haha u judge ppl, ppl judge u too...

Oh well, sometimes u might know that maybe she isnt interested u at all, but u somehow wish that she is, thats why I keep trying to talk to her, or find chance to say hi or smth... yeah i know alot of hopeful people out there, they juz wish that the other opposite person they like willl kinda pay attention to them... But actually the sad truth is that, they find u irritating... They find u buggy, they find u desperate, they find u all the reasons that u wont want them to find u as... Sorry confusing rite? haha oh well in short, ur love is not reciprocated...

Talking to Meng Ni that night, she was telling me that NUS got lots of girls haha, yeah i know lah, that is all guy's thinking that going to Uni will find another girl... Many are hopeful about that, but i dunno leh, to me i'm juz thinking Uni life seems lonely one, most of the time spending on lectures and tutotials and freaking deadline projects... Oh well I told her that, if a girl comes along so be it bah, i wont like purposely wait until i go NUS then find one... Whats comes along, its fate...

Oh well talking so much makes me tired liao... Oh well hope maybe love will blossom, but if its juz another girl so be it lah... Sometimes in life u really cannot force things lah, maybe juz be sad for awhile and get on with life, life is like that... For now juz hope that she will notice more about me, thats all I can ask for haha... =)

May everyone get a good date for V day... Cherish the ones u love...

ESP...

2006-01-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

Oh well i failed tp... Damm lah, there goes all my plans... Oh well booked another one at end of march... So jia lat... Gotta wait for so long, but nvm i say patience... Hope i pass the next time... Lately no luck, mahjong never do well... Oh well luck will expand one lah, muz recharge... Well i'm sick, down with some throat infection which i dunno why? So sick lately, now coughing like mad... Haiz, so sick, so down in luck... Whats next man? haha oh well now trying new stuff... Chinese New Year is coming, time for shopping neh... hahaha but i need money $$$$$$... So many beautiful shirts and pants... I juz wanna go shopping... haha yeah... okie, very tired liao, write more next time... =)

TP again...

2006-01-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

Oh well its back to camp again... I hate this moment but at least from today i know i left 3 months or rather 2.5 months haha... Well, friday is my tp test le... kinda stressed... i really hope i can pass so i can drive my dad's car haha... I juz dun wanna waste money and waste time... I wanna pass ah... I juz kinda have the confidence to pass... But i'm rather uncertain coz my performance is up and down... hope that day was perfect... if i dont knock onto any poles during parking and up and kerbs... and follow traffic rules i think i'll be fine...

Oh well back to my life again liao, hopefully can come out and play more mahjong... so all i wish now is pass my tp... thats all i want... back to camp, back to sianz life... haha but make the best out of it... thats life... =)

Sorry...

2005-12-26T03:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry haven been updating my blog for a long time...

Oh meng ni juz came to my house, to cheer me up, rather surprise look at the time now how late... haha was saying coming to play monopoly but in the end played mahjong... 2 person play only lolx, but kinda fun... haha to me mahjong is always fun...

yesterday went yq house to play mahjong, kinda a christmas party, very happy won $20... the food was great too, but had to leave early... oh well now left 79 more days in the army for me, hope time passes faster... haiz alot of upcoming events, eg jan 6th my class 3 tp test, 15th march ord, end of march piano exam and many many more... Its really damm stressful... Today went to test smth, and the person said that i'm highly understress... Wow she is so damm right, i'm really understress, too much stress... Be it stress over big or small thing, its still stress...

Lately felt that i've been neglecting my family, hope to be closer to them soon... oh well alot's been happening lately, its draining my energy... I'm feeling very tired, very low, very shag... I juz hope things turn better...

Life lately...

2005-12-09T14:28:00.000+08:00

Its been a while... I"m so damm tired now... I'm going back to sleep later... Yesterday played mahjong with Swee khim, Choon Wei and Zi Haur (and his dog also)... We played from 11pm to 7am... In the end i lost, $1.50 haha... Not only that, afternoon played with Yiquan, his gf and Swee Khim... haha so yesterday basically was from 1pm to next day 7am... hmm 18hours of mahjong... Haha yeah!!! I've clocked more mileage, means more experience...

The day before went to watch Aeon flux with JJ and Happy... Hmm i would say i'll give 6.5/10 bah... not saying its not nice or what... its juz a action movie which is predictable or not much storyline... But the action is good lah... so i would say its worth watching but not a $9.50 ticket... I got it for $7 since its a weekday... Before that went to eat Ajisen... Very long time never eat liao, not bad...

Hmm so fast today friday liao, means sunday going back to camp... 1 week of leave juz like that pass... At least i think i've well spent it... 2 more weeks of ERT course and my yr end block leave will be here again... Oh i went for driving too on tuesday and wednesday, i was so angry with my instructor, but aiyah dont wanna talk abt it again liao, i was so pissed and demoralised till now... I juz hope to pass my tp on Jan 6th soon, i want my license and I dun wanna see that guy again...
Hope i pass the 1st time, i know i can do it... Although all odds are against me...

I want...

2005-12-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

I want a GSXR 1000... Perhaps a GSXR 600? I want a WRX... I want a BMW Z4... I want a girlfriend... I want companionship... I want a new piano... I want money... I want freedom off the army... I want to club... I wanna eat good food... I wanna be happy... I want to travel around the world to see interesting stuff... I want this, I want that... But i never got what I want... I'm always wishing for this and that but i dont get them... I always want things that are hard to get or long to get... Thats me, Alvin, but there is one thing... I never stop trying, dream on... =)

Can i have a girlfriend? I promise to take care of her and treat her nicely...

Retro Sucks... I love R n B...

2005-11-27T04:30:00.000+08:00

Today went clubbing with Happy, JJ, Sam, Elvin and Joey... We went to dbl o... haha today its Retro nite... I didnt know what the heck was it so i went... IT SUCKS... haha yeah i know, some of them like it... Wah lau eh, i feel that the group of us is the youngest one lah... screwed up lah, all big sisters and big brothers out there... EEEEEEeeeee... haha oh well i think i'll stick to my RnB... Should have gone china black lah... Haiz... Nvm... But if u wanna go dbl o for RnB its gonna be on a thursday nite bah... Oh well its generally okie lah, juz that everyone was dancin retro that i dunno what the heck are they doing... Seems so clownish if we try to do it... But those ppl we see that are doing it are so damm pro... There seems to be unity... hahaha... damm funny lah... like everyone kana mind control except u... Haha oh well nvm lah, i still prefer my RnB, freestyle my favourite... Hope can go soon liao... Next next week bah... For now, very tired liao time to sleep... =)

Me and Happy lolx

2005-11-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

Back from 2 days 1 nite from the forest... Okie lah, this time isnt very siong for me cause... well nvm... anyway haha happy is coming back soon!!! haha yay!!! its been a yr, so this friday, JJ and I are going to see from changi airport... ASSUMING I have 1/2 day off on friday!!!

This picture was taken during this yr chinese new yr... nvm abt the wrong timeline if u have realised...

Oh well woo hoo friday coming soon in fact 2 days away... cya then happy, time for clubbing yay!!! I hope that day will be fun lah haha yupz... Pls dont rain haha... =)

Looking Forward...

2005-11-19T00:59:00.000+08:00

So its been a week liao... Damm tired, if i'm not wrong today should left 118 days before i ord... So much shit work to do in camp, i do until sianz liao... Oh today book out, YQ and I went to buy Mahjong at People's park shopping centre and chinatown... My bike holland until newton there, exit at wrong exit haha, took 1 hr to reach there, so shag man... At night, i bought a table too... Means i've a Mahjong Set ready to play liao, woo hoo... But i realise no one to play with at the moment, but not bad lah, at least i have the table and set liao haha...

Next week, happy is finally coming back, woo hoo, 25th nov... 26th nov we going to her house bbq and also going back yjc for that day also for alumni gathering... hmm looking forward to next weekend, although this week end haven ends... Oh i also went to collect my specs today... Cool, i like them alot, next time then show u the pic... December I will be having block leave, i'm looking forward to that too lolx... So hopefully life will change for the better...

Me and my baby...

2005-11-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

Haha this is me and my baby... Haha erm she is called Jamie... Dun ask me why is she called Jamie, coz thats the name i tot for her... Yupz, took it the day before at ps with JJ... =)

Season of loneliness...

2005-11-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

This is really the season of downess, loneliness, or whatever... I'm feeling of... Sadness, anger, rage, hatred, lonely, down... Everything, i'm going to go into depression, seriously i think so... I know it sounds wierd that i can say that, but i got this strong feeling that in time to come, i might juz be another person that i dun even know...

I need lotsa stuff now... I need cash, time for myself to get what I want, I need love, I need luck, I need hope, I need faith, I need confirmation... I need lotsa a things, yeah sounds greedy i know... But i juz want at least 1 i hope... I dunno, too stress lately, I better find my cure...

Oh anyway, haha happy's gonna come back on 25th nov, its been a long time since we club man, its been a long time since i club, i'll make sure we'll go club on the 26th nov as promised... I'm also going back to yishun jc for alumni session, hope can see people change haha, in all types, older haha prettier? haha cooler? i dunno lah haha whatever haha lolx... For now, i'm looking forward to 25th nov haha... yupz hmm and the tea session at on the same day too... Clubbing time haha... =)

I'm back... Mr Neutrality...

2005-10-24T08:45:00.000+08:00

Mr Neutrality...

--- I'm Mr Neutrality... When things go bad, i'll make it good... When things are going 2 well, i'm juz gonna make it bad... For i dun believe one can be always up or down... Something will come by and adjust everything back to normal... ---

So well its been a long time since i blogged... Hmm 3 weeks? i dunno... Oh well, busy this week... My great grandmother passed away, so gotta prepare funeral stuff... Oh well, i hope she has gone to a better place, free from sufferings... Sad, we are yes, but she is 91 liao le... Hmm guess u dun wish ur family to suffer for so long bah... Hmm its been weeks since i went for driving lesson... oh well glad i didnt forget how to drive a car... yeah gotta admit i wish i got a car so i can drive... quite relax eh, "blow" aircon, listen to music (those black music with cool, loud and low base i like), hmm oh well, thats juz a dream... Haha juz gonna concentrate in getting my R1 in 2 yrs time...

As from today its 143 days before my chains are broken... Sometimes i tot of it, maybe i'll miss these days... yeah i guess i will, but for now i really wanna go man... these 143 days might fast compared to the 645 days that have passed... But i guess the workload is gonna be extremely heavy, hope i can survive...

Oh well I've fined $8 twice for not displaying parking cupon... i cant believe it, 1 time was right, but the other time was becoz my cupon look soggy thats why maybe they tot i reused... Last week paid a $50 wheel clamp fine at ps... JJ and I got it too... Oh man, now i've to think of smth to pay for my this month's installment... I need money fast man, haiz... But dun worry i still can pay my installments haha... juz that i cant buy somethings i like... hmm, oh well dun buy dun buy lor, next time got chance then buy hee hee... Oh well, feeling very tired lately, i think i need a long break... Oh well heard that december got block leave, good time to rest... but i juz tot of it, i cant, i got driving exam in janauary... i've got piano exams in march... i've got lots of stuff to do, its not abt the task itself, its the preparation, takes time...

Oh i'm still out of love... haha... =)

Sorry...

2005-10-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since i blogged... Alot of stuff happening... Sorry, i'll blog soon again...

Believe it or not...

2005-10-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

Can u believe it, today i was summoned $8 even though i put the parking coupon... The person must have saw that it was a dirty coupon, so he thought it had been re-used... I cant believe it man, usually i park illegally no one catches me, but today i finally put the coupon, i'm fined for nothing... What the hell is going on man?!?!?!

Oh man today my amount of savings drop again... can u believe it man... i forget to calculate my insurance money... So dropped a further $70, i'm so broke man... Haha anyway, today wass fun having Dim Sum with my army friends... Haha ate alot, but very slow... We ate at dragon gate restaurant at habour front shopping centre... Went to fetch tai hong... then we proceeded to harbour front, on the way it rained... argh i hate that man, i was quite soaked after the rain, but lucky for taihong, he wasnt so wet, u should know why... Sianz ah... Haha...

I'm still like that...

2005-10-07T13:30:00.000+08:00

Its been a week i guess, life's hard... I dunno or maybe i'm taking it too hard... Oh well pay day is coming soon, soon i'll get back my peaNUTs pay... I can really earn more than that outside u know? Juz by doing delivery or giving tuition... The pay is really low man, I cant take it... I've done so much shit for them and all they can pay me is nuts... Oh well cant change that so nvm... Juz 5 more months and i'll be free... I guess...

Life isnt so great lately so i decided to look for help... Haha nvm abt that... So yeah nothing has improved, i'm still whining abt my life, yeah i know go ahead lah complain complain, nobodoy gives a shit abt me anyway... Glad that some feels the same way, at least i'm not alone... But we are alone... Oh well, i'm trying i'm trying to see things in a better way, maybe there is hope and somthing in life that i could look forward... I hope i cant find it soon, real soon...

Oh i came across a code... I think its very cool... Wonder if u agree with me?

Peace is a lie
There is only passion
Through passion I gain strength
Through strength I gain power
Through power I gain victory
Through victory my chains are broken
The Force shall set me free

Oh well lately, i kinda need money... Haha so i better save... Hmm maybe hopefully money will drop from the sky hee hee...

U reap what u sow...

2005-09-30T16:15:00.000+08:00

I feel that some people dont deserve certain things... For some, they dont deserve love, some money, some whatever... Coz those ppl misuse them... Those love cheaters, over spenderers buying stuff that is so exp and not need, some ppl who misuse their intelligence to cheat others...
So for now, i'm juz angry that life is so unfair... perhaps its time for me to have what i should have...

Where is the love?

2005-09-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

Today i'll address the issue on life... Hmm yes yes love life again... I've come to realise that life is really unfair... some girls for eg. maybe after the previous failed relationship will juz not believe in love anymore... those bad guys gets the girls... after hurting them... good guys who tries to win the girls heart can never do so coz those girls shut themselves up from other guys, those whom might really give them true love... So u see, i juz dunno what to say lah... u infer, tired of explaining...

If there is only a love judge... then i'll sentence those ppl who are heartbreakers to 100yrs of loveless and solitude... those cheaters can be sentenced to no love syndrom... if only someone can juz justify these unfairness in life... obviously not rite? so u see life is unfair...

Lately i'm out of faith... so many happenings... i'm out of faith, money, love... i went to see the doc yesterday... yeah she said my chix pox has recovered... but she suspected that i had hand, foot and mouth disease at the time when i had chix pox... i cant believe it man... how sucky can it get... yesterday i also went to change my bike tyres and brake pad... it cost $200 bucks altogether... i'm juz argh tired, juz frustrated... whats happening man?

So many events, when would life be better? i know u will say there are much ppl worst out there... i know... but i'm juz feeling bad abt my life too u know... lets not compare man... if like that no one is bad... there is always worst... my point is that i hate it that my life has gone down... really u wont know how i feel man, series of unfortunate events... its not funny at all, it makes u tired, scared, faithless, hopeless and everything less... u juz wonder when will ur life pick up again? u juz wonder things that might not even come but u still wonder... u can only hope, u cant do anything... thats helplessness...

Maybe someone who have been thru such life can tell me bah... maybe i'll feel a little more hopeful better than hopeless... hmm i juz wish life will be better... thats all i wish for now...

Night so lonely... So lonely...

2005-09-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

Today was chatting with yumun... realised that one of our friends got attached again... with someone i knew too... it was rather unexpected... haha she juz broke off not long... she and that guy were juz campus friends... the guy was attached too but broke off... who knows they are together liao... well, happy for them... life is full of unexpected returns and events...

Lately too also found out that my sis has a bf too haha... oh well at 1st wanted to interfere, but yah lah true lah... i'm not qualified too, i dun even have a gf... i cant even take care of myself, so i got no rights to talk... hmm well i dunno lah, i juz hope she knows what she is doing... haha juz 15 only... but yeah age izzint the matter... i realised that even if she has to break up in the end, its alrite... guess thats part of growing up bah...

Oh she also told me happy got attached too... she is at australia now, got attached with an sg guy there haha studying there... how nice, love found on the otherside of the earth...

Hmm what to do seems like everyone is getting attached... everyone is happy and i'm happy for them... me leh, haha i'm juz with my chicken pox... haha how good can it get... oh well lonely now, wanna hug someone to sleep now, juz wanna share secrets and whisper sweet nothings, juz wanna hold u and feel that everything is going well and rite, even though the reality is not... guess not bah, as usual, my bolster... hmm good nitez...

Day 4...

2005-09-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm seems like its recovering... some seems like dried up... but cant be too sure... tmr it might come out more, i really dunno... everything is uncertain... i wanna heal... i juz wanna heal...

Day 2...

2005-09-17T13:48:00.000+08:00

Its Day 2, with the war between me and the chicken pox... Today was worst than yesterday... seems like the enemy forces grew stronger... their size increase in numbers greatly... more and more blisters forming, i'm feeling the pain... its very painful whenever i walk... for now seems like the medicine is no use, i suspect is juz a placebo... i have fever, but the doctor didnt give me any medicine, i dunno why... i juz took my own panadol... thats it man, i think day 3 going to be worst, my friends told me they would start dying in abt day 5 onwards... seems like my one going to take a long long time already... i'm missing my life out there, i'm so coped up at home, i cant go out, all i do at home is sleep, eat, watch movie, watch tv, headache, leg pain, bathe, sleep argh... i cant take this solitary confinment... haiz... day 3, what to do, tmt wake up then i'll know whats for day 3...

Chicken Pox

2005-09-16T09:40:00.000+08:00

I've decided to forget abt her, decided this yest... They always say never get involved with a girl who still loves her ex... Lately i felt that she still likes her ex alot... I decided to give up bah... Hmm kinda no point u know, hmm yeah u would say she is another failed attempt... but no choice, when someone still likes the ex, no matter what u do or how u try, i doubt the person will accept you... I'm fine, i'm juz feeling tired... conversations run blend, everything seems so bored... so i guess, maybe juz not suited bah... dont think i wanna meet anymore though... I juz dun feel like doing anything lately... 1 minute i would say maybe i would go down to wash my bike... the next minute i'll say perhaps tmr bah, i'm tired... 1 minute i would say perhaps should start packing up my stuff or go somewhere? next minute i'll juz give up and juz rest at home... I cant be bothered to do anymore things... Juz feel tired, dunno becoz of what... So for now, its like i really liked her, but now i suddenly feel very crappy... I juz want to be with myself, yet hoping for someone to come by... So gone bah, the guardian angel of hers, is no more there, it was part of a fantasie, the past... now we could shake hands and be friends as it will always be...

I was talking abt being suay and having ill luck lately... it didnt get better, i went to see the doctor again... he said it was chicken pox, my suspicion was correct... I cant believe it man, tell me what did i do? why am i sick lately, starting with flu now this... Anyway my camp got chicken pox outbreak... i'm the 4th person i think... See lah, i dunno what to say lah... Flu, helmet stolen, failed relationship, chicken pox... I dunno how much can i take... everyone has a threshold, mine is reaching... I'm really very tired, whats going on man... Juz this frustration with life in me... Life isnt kind to me... So till now, life aint kind to me... What can i do now? Juz hope, pray, wish... Cant do much... I'm sick real, sick of everything and all i can do now is hope maybe someone will tell me what to do and show me the light... I juz have to search back my life, the one i liked...

Someone stole my evolution

2005-09-15T10:59:00.000+08:00

Today went to catch the longest yard with yugui... its good, the movie was quite funny...

Then as i was going back to the carpark, i realise that someone has stolen my helmet... I clipped both helmet on my bike, my evo 2 helmet is gone... i cant believe it man, someone cut the strap of my helmet, leaving only the 2 rings... I was like, i also dunno how to feel... i was, argh i dunno, what now? u get what i mean? but now i'm rather very angry after thinking what the person has did, he cost me so much trouble... I had to go back to get another helmet for yugui and go back to jp again... i really want to know who that person is, but on the hand i really dun want to know... coz if i know who that person is i guess i'll get violent... haha i think i'll juz use the evo 2 helmet and smash it right thru his face, but seriously no joke, i think i'll really do that, coz he deserved it... if he wants my helmet so much, i give it right into his face, he can then keep it as a souvenior...

I've been feeling very sianz lately, lately so suay... I feel sick, then this then that... argh something's juz not rite... what the hell have i done man... Nothing's in place... Maybe all my life i've been unlucky or suay i dun know... come to think of it, nothing good has came out from my life... i realise that nothing made me happy before, i dont see anything which is memorable done by me... i dont see any thing happy that i should have... i juz see phases of my sad past, all the bad experiences... I'm sick and tired of all these...

Mr Bother...

2005-09-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

Now i know why i cant get a gf... Guess i'm too bothery liao... Full of sms, full of calls, full of hopes, in smth which hasnt even started... think i juz scare her away or rather i've made her angry... i think i've sms her too often, i've msg her too much, till she cant take it anymore... I'm such a loser man!!! I think i've shown too much concern... I know muz have been, i never even see her before, yet i felt so much... No one understands lah, their conclusion is desperate... Whatever, cant be bother to explain i'm really very sad...

I dunno what have i done... I mean I do know, but seriously does showing some extra care and concern for someone pisses ppl off? yes yes i know okie fine, i'm really a bother, i dunno what to say liao... juz wanna care for special someone, juz haiz u know... i feel dissapointed now, not in her, but in myself... always tell myself in my mind... take it slow, take it slow... i didnt, i ran towards it... i fell into thy trap, love trap... Only some will know how i feel lah...

Thanks for the comments, val val and dandan...

Angel Hurtz...

2005-09-12T11:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes dont you juz wish that there is ppl who understands how u feel deep inside... Have u ever like a girl that is when she is feeling sad or down, u'll feel sad too? i'm not saying she is ur gf... but juz a girl that you like... hmm but i guess she'll never know... maybe she doesnt even care... but what choice u have? u like her, u juz have to keep it to urself...

Oh well i'm still trying to get used to her not replying my sms and not calling me... Oh dont suspect my sms, i juz sms really abit like 1 or 2 sms not those 10 or 20 sms... So its like, hmm i'm a person that will wait for sms, yeah...

Life is rather unpredictable, today saw my ex-classmate at the padang after the ahm run... was asking her how was she and stuff... realised she broke up with her bf liao... u know its like i was rather, hmm aiyoh so sad, coz i tot they were really steady u know that kind of stuff... But she juz broke up like say 2 weeks ago... Thats why i say in life there is nothing certain, truely nothing... Its like one moment i can be sms and talking to her well and the next moment its juz silence i'm there left alone to wonder what had gone wrong... Its painful lah, but its like what can u do u know? ur juz that guy who like her... Yupz so u cant expect much from her, u dont even know she likes you or not? i'm mean everything is uncertain... So all u can do now is juz wait, waiting is the most painful thing in life, but what can u do? i made the choice, i chose the path...

Missing you, waiting for sms and calls...
By myself, guess u'll never know...

Love clinic...

2005-09-10T13:50:00.000+08:00

I've finally finish reading the book i've bought that day... its called love clinic, can be found at popular... its really really very nice... interesting... haha it talks abt singles like me... its very interesting becoz i feel that the author knows what am i going thru... he juz said it all out... then he gave lots of advices, tips, examples... haha i find comfort in reading it bah i would say... the author is local haha, they are actually medical students, i think doctors by now haha... haha they kinda teach you on how to get a gf or rather steps to take haha and ensure a long lasting realtionship... yeah i do agree with their views... its really kinda true...

Oh well its another week in camp... This afternoon i juz had a good dream i remb, but i forget what izzit liao... At least thats the best dream i had for this week yet i hope... this weekend will be short i guess... tmr book in sunday book out and in again... sianz... oh well hope to meet that special someone soon... hee hee i'm not superficial, i dont judge ppl by looks... =)

Battery Flat...

2005-09-10T13:40:00.000+08:00

Aiyoh juz now got a shock of my life... I didnt ride Jamie into camp for 1 week liao... she was parked downstairs my house for one week... today i went to try, her battery all flat... i had a hard time retrieveing her ahhhh... but lucky with many many tries i managed to revive her... but on the road, half way i switch on the headlights... and poof there goes her engine... it stalled... on the road!!! i was on the fast lane man... luckily the road user behind me was very courteous, he waited for me to revive then go on... thanks man whoever you are... haiz see lah... tmr i've gtg to the workshop liao... coz me money again... this incident can actually be well avoided lah!!! juz becoz of that stupid frying pan guy in my camp that complain of ppl riding into camp... that i cant ride jamie into camp... sianz ah... i'm going to make sure this ban uplift soon... its really a hassle to us... we buy bikes and keep at home ah? u better pay me back the money lah!!!

Oh well over with the bike issue... sunday is ahm... sianz liao, gotta book in tmr at 7pm sianz again... haiz dunno why always this type of crap one... anyway yah lah... yesterday had a good chat with my buddy till ard 2am... haha i finally found someone that shares the same tots as what i've ever tot abt life... haha nevermind spare u the details... its damm boring if u dont feel like listen to the topic... its abt life on, finally we have come out the truth abt life, we analysed why life is like that haha...
the bottom line... we cant escape...

I fear the night... the lonely night...

2005-09-09T11:20:00.000+08:00

Well this week was rather hmm sianz sianz... I'm sick for the first few days... Got flu... Haha MO said it was quite serious, i was surprised... I think i'm not virusly sick, i'm love sick... i couldn't sleep the whole nitez, waiting for sms... every 1 hour will wake up and see my hp, wondering has that special someone sms me... of course not... till the next morning 6am when i've to really wake up, i'm really feeling tired and sick... I'm plagued by bad dreams, full of them, those kind that will make u literally cry in ur dream... that kind of bad dreams... cant sleep, turn and toss on the creaking bed... this new bunk of mine sucks... so izzit the new bunk? the bad dreams? or the waiting for my sms? Haha almost spending everynight waiting for sms... i hear thy sms sound, i'm so happy, i took a look... it isnt her... its my friend, argh... why isnt her? go back to sleep... check sms every hr till next day again haha... oh well, glad that she did sms me in the day... I'm so much happier in the day... I fear the night, the lonely night...

Wonder where have my dreams gone, izzit the streak of bad dreams i once had again? i hope not... kinda feel that my bunk is haunted lolx, haha dunno lah juz wondering only... Hope everything will be fine again... haha everyday pass, means everyday something new will come... whether izzit good or bad i do not know... everyone juz hope for thy best... for me i juz hope to see her soon... thats all for me now... i dunno what to expect liao...

Love at 1st sight? got such thing?

2005-09-05T11:50:00.000+08:00

As what i posted before about missing someone...

Do u ever believe in love at 1st sight? Do u ever believe that u can love or like somebody so much even though u never see him/her before...

When you sms someone and they dont reply back, you get very worried, wonder why she never reply, where she go? is she angry with you... haha juz all those weird weird qn comes into your mind...

I guess its always like that lah, somehow u will wish that the other party will reciprocate your love... but then life is like, i mean in my case, u usually wont get them.. somehow it ends up that the other party just dont reciprocate your love...

Then u'll always be hoping that maybe one day there will be this one that will love you back... Juz one day bah... Juz hoping... Juz that one person...

2005-08-24T12:00:00.000+08:00

This is a picture of my and my brother haha... Do we look alike?

Oh well i juz hope ahm comes soon...
If not i'll be damm sianz...
Everyweek going for more than 10km run is really very tiring for me ah... Still have to do alot of work haiz...

Oh well back to camp liao, see lah, sianz rite...

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?

2005-08-22T15:45:00.000+08:00

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.

U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.

Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u went out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/heronline. When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she isokay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes u to loneliness. It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let you know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.U feel as if u are being left alone.So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let themknow. At the same time, ask if they miss u. Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. If u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait.

Sianz Sunday...

2005-08-22T03:57:00.000+08:00

So another week has passed... That whole week was a hectic week... I guess the next whole week too, luckily i took a day off on monday... very tiring, came back at 3am yesterday, woke up at ard 11am but still very tired... tmr still got driving sianz ah...
Very bored of the life i'm having here man...
Enough said, going to sleep liao...

Happy Sunday...

2005-08-15T13:20:00.000+08:00

Today went to suntec with alison, haha 1st time meeting her, she is so beautiful... =P haha yeah, oh well went to eat at suntec, fish and co, ordered a meal but then too big liao i cant finish, maybe coz i ate some when in the morning liao... yeah loh then we went to see some exhibition i think its silkpro hair lolx... at suntec exhibition, but i think today was the last day liao... went there coz got her favourite idol evonne hsu, haha did i spell right? haha nnadia chan was also there, chen song ling lah if u dunno the english name... haha both look very very pretty haha, better than on tv... haha wanted to accompany her to the concert held tonight at marina bay but however i've gtg book in later argh... i hate it, army is always hindering what i wanna do... =( haiz dont say liao lah sianz ah!!! I know when i go back this week is gonna be real sianz, i know that man... its not like this week that i've some even like today to look forward to... so next week or rather from tmr i'll be as usual bored again... hope that i've somthing to look forward to bah... hmm yeah... back to camp liao... =)

One more duty...

2005-08-13T13:20:00.000+08:00

Today is a boring day... Went with wy and joan back to the carnival, can u believe it... i actually went back to the carnival argh... but nvm lah, juz walk walk as a civilian compared to wearing no.4 seems very weird actually... haha oh well in the end we went ps walk walk coz i parked my bike there haha... then went cartel to eat... very full, cartel food is nice i think... we ordered some combo, very large... haha oh well tmr got duty again... awhile more gtg back camp liao, coz tmr i'm be going straight down... yeah so yah loh, back to marina once again... but its gonna be my last duty liao lah... yeah i know very fast one haha... i'm juz looking forward to sunday, coz erm yeah i'm looking forward to sunday... ;-)

2005-08-12T17:15:00.000+08:00

Haha yest was the 2nd time i got attacked by a cat... I cant believe it man, how can a cat attack me? I got three scratch claw marks thanks to that cat... Or rather thanks to myself... I was walking to the mrt station early in the morning... As i was walking walking, i saw the cat sitting on the ledge of the round pillar under a block... then i juz went to tap its back, then when it turns its head, i went ard the pillar and then pat its head, at 1st she was fine, then i guess it doesnt like me patting its head like a dog, thats why its seems like i'm pushing its head haha... therefore got scratched haha... oh well told yiquan, he was laughing at me that morning haha too bad for me lah...

Haha duty was as usual at marina... i cant believe this afternoon i'm going back to visit the carnival with wy and joan, but this time the whole carnival lah, not my part only... hope to take some good pictures... saturday is my last duty liao, quickly finish and hopefully sunday can go out...

Oh well time to get some rest... Hope that after the carnival got off...

Happy bday singapore...

2005-08-10T12:15:00.000+08:00

So this is me... Haha oh well today is national day, 1/2 day for me... haha yeah, feeling better already in all aspects... Today wanted to go top up my bike but seems like alot of ppl are queueing up so i didnt haha... went jurong point wanted to see somthing cool for my friend's coming bday... yeah got it liao, i think i'll still check out the prices... surprise soon!!! hmm yeah thats abt all... Hmm tmr, dunno what to do also... Juz relax at home bah... =)

Air brakes refuelled ready to go...

2005-08-06T12:50:00.000+08:00

Haha this is Jamie, I've changed her air brakes, haha i mean her brake pads... The uncle told me i was lucky coz my brake pad is almost as finished liao, so anymore further usage of the brake i would have spoil my disk brake... Today top also did servicing, changed her engine oil and spark plug... Somehow after servicing, she became faster in movement, somehow quicker haha... i wonder what did the mechanic did to her haha... but today cost alot lah!!! $93 altogether, but not that expensive... coz i bought a raincoat and 2T engine oil bottle too so altogether $93, brake pads cost $28 haiz...

Sometimes i wonder since 2b my maintenace is quite high liao what will my maintenace be like when i get a class 2a or 2 bike or even a car... haha all is abt money... u might have to money to buy the bike but if u dont have the money to maintain, its as good as gone... so those who wanna own a bike make sure u have the money to maintain too... =)

Stealth...

2005-07-31T16:30:00.000+08:00

Juz now went to catch stealth with jj and yumun... It was great, haha i love flying... ever since a kid i kinda wanna be a pilot, but as time passed, i began wearing specs then argh cannot liao... but the flying was cool... but i doubt ppl can do that haha, abit unreal...

Hmm as usual again... see alot of couples, then start to get jealous, why is life so unfair, blah blah blah... u know me lah, always juz complaining abt not having a gf and stuff like that haha... cant help it everytime i see couples, i juz feel abit hmm... esp if the display pda, i get even angrier haha... more jealousier haha... oh well enough of whinning haha...

Yeah i've passed my soc liao... got a rather safe timing of 9.12 haha yeah i know not fast but not slow also mah... at least i know for my whole life i wont be doing soc again liao yeah!!!

Hate and Anger...

2005-07-26T10:45:00.000+08:00

Lately i'm full of hate and anger... I dunno why, perhaps its like i'm already angry becoz of some stuff... Then now its like a simple stuff makes me angry... I hope i can be alright soon... Juz hope that i'm alright bah, i'm alright lah, juz kinda frustrated... Oh well gotta go back camp liao...

Would u do that too?

2005-07-25T10:45:00.002+08:00

1. If I like the girl... I ASK HER OUT personally

2. When i hug her, i put my arms around herwaist and hold her close

3. When i walk next to her, i get as close as i can

4. If shes the only one in my life, I'LL TELL HER

5. I ALWAYS let her know how much i like her,loveher, or think about her

6. I give her presents and cards for no reason, SHE WILL RETURN THE FAVOR... ALWAYS

7. If she hangs up on me, i call her right back

8. I always offer to pay, if she says NO twice, then i let her pay but make a deal that i get to pay next time (date offer too!)

9. i kiss her lightly every chance i get

10. i look in her eyes and kiss her on the lips, forehead, or nose

11. if she says she's cold, dont be an idiot and say "me 2" and stand there, or give her your jacket so she feels guilty that your freezing....just simply hold her in your arms

12. dont force her to do anything shes not comfortable with

13. i invite her to dinner or somewhere where we can talk, INSTEAD Of the movies

14. try not to ask her if she's mad at you EVERYTIME you speak to her

15. Always tell her you LOVE her only if you REALLY mean it

16. AND DON'T EVER tell a girl you love her if you just want to get in her pants.... that's what sluts are for.... don't break a good heart :)

The island...

2005-07-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went with kin seng and ah lau to watch the island... very nice wor... ewen mcgregor is cool man and the girl is very pretty too... the kissing scene is juz, beautifully, demoralising... haiz for singles like me...
hmm lately like faced alot of stress hmm not really stress... i oso dunno lah, juz getting very irritated with lots of stuff...
Oh yest met my pretty and capable insurance agent haha... she is very good haha yeah... anyone need insurance agent tell me wor... finicial advise also can haha...

Do u believe there is such things as everlasting love... In this world, or rather would u say its everlasting like? haha love or like... sometimes its hard to differentiate... if u think u like this person alot, does it mean u love him or her? it might juz be 100% like but actually 10% love... so its as good as nothing... or rather an unstable relationship... so when the like stage is off, it is off... till now i've seldom seen relationship that lasts... my friends they went thru break ups and stuff... Hmm maybe lasting relationship would be like my friends such as weiyang and yiquan... they are the ones i feel that are going strong one, looks like can get married soon haha... but u know lah, nothing in the world is confirm...

How many of u have been rejected many times? How many of u have been like say trying to get this girl of ur dreams but then u cant... coz they are either attached or rather simply not attracted to u... hmm haha somewhat rather the same here lah ur not alone... hmm for me its juz like the girl i usually like is attached or rather simply not atttracted to me... yeah i dont blame them lah, liking someone is rather a tough process... some ppl can be very good friends but bad couples or rather can be very close but then being friends are better off...

Those ppl would say hey why so despo, so hard up for girls... its somthing they wont understand, coz its not them... ppl react diff... to them it might be okie but to ppl like me its juz like i hope to have a gf too, when u see couples... hahah so its like ppl react differently... if u try to get a gf, u wont get it, but if u dont try to get a gf, u definitely wont get it... so what i'm saying that i rather try lah... But sometimes i picture myself with a gf... i feel rather scary lah, dunno why there is this constant fear in me... dont know what i'm afraid of... haha so those ppl who is now trying to get a gf or wishing to get a gf... hope ur dreams will come true...

Oh well i do believe in everlasting love... Juz it is rare to find and hard to create... For only time could and will show, which is not defined by its duration but rather will it juz be another relationship...

Lost and found...

2005-07-17T17:00:00.000+08:00

Oh man i got lost in singapore can u imagine... Yesterday went to fetch yumun from jj's place... then i went thru pie trying to get to the city... at 1st i saw the sign saying to city thats why i followed... then i went straight all the way hoping to find the next sign saying to city... but it didnt happen at all... there wasnt any sign... i should have exit from steven's road but when the hell would i ever know that i've to exit by steven's road... does it sounds like city to u? haiz, so what to do... juz from bke, go kje, then sle, then back to kje then bke... what the heck man, i juz pumped my petrol lah then what the heck... haha bought jj's present, an evo 2 helmet... i got mine too haha...

I feel lonely, i'm so lonely, i've nobody all by myself...

Merchant court...

2005-07-11T03:25:00.000+08:00

This week my internet connection was rather screwed up till this morning... Yesterday went with JJ, Yumun and Happy to ps to watch fantastic 4, it was not bad, very good action haha... then we went to merchant court, the food there was good... real good... it has tiny crab claws, durian paste (this one is very nice), lots of dessert, lots of fruits haha and many vegetables cooked in different style haha...

Haha yest went for Jamie's 1st servicing haha... no major fault... haha changed her oil, spark plug, and greased her chains haha, yeah she is smoother now... later going to top up her petrol liao and give her a wash haha...

Hmm very tired man, i'm feeling very tired after friday's soc... tuesday got trail test hope my muscles will rest by then... now very shag haha kkies, gonna go top up fuel liao...

I fear love...

2005-07-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

I'm scared i realised... everytime i think that i can get into a relationship, i suddenly get very scared... i dunno why its juz like i'm afraid of commitment... its like everytime i get close to someone i'll be scared... i dunno why lah, its like this constant fear bugging me... its like before that u think u'll be fine with her but then as u get close to her u feel scared... i dunno why lah, maybe it isnt the right gal bah... maybe its isnt the right time... maybe its isnt the way... maybe its me, maybe its my problem, yeah i know of course its my prob... Oh well i'm juz gonna wait bah, but till when i dunno... Wait till i'm not scared haha perhaps... or maybe when the right gal comes bah haha... maybe till then i'll not be scared, coz i know i've chosen the right one... till then lets hope bah...

Sometimes ppl say u only get one chance... only one shot, if u missed it ur gone haha... what if u dont even get that chance... say for some ppl maybe they like fiona xie for eg... haha what in their life they cant even get to say hi to her... that will be juz like a fantasy... haha i feel that i can be any girl not fiona particularly, but juz any girl which maybe u wont get to talk to her or even go near her... u dont have the chance... so what can u do, even though u see her like everyday but u 2 are strangers, u dont talk... Sometimes when u see someone u like with someone u think its not compatible u feel jealous rite? haha like me too... everytime i see girls who i think i will like with someone who i feel not compatible i feel very [haiz]... u know its like i think she will be better off with me haha... but who knows lah maybe the guy realli treats her well... hmm oh well thats enough said for me... i always hope that maybe some girl that i like will pay attention to me... juz hope lah, as u know lah hopes sometime juz never come by, u can always wish for ur whole life... wishing wishing wishing... u know that sometimes it will never come, but somehow there is like 1%, juz that 1% u wish that it will come true... perhaps, with hope + that 1% chance u might get what u want... that is perhaps... haha hmm oh well gtg back camp liao...

Sunday Morning...

2005-07-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

Oh yesterday went to pay $10.45 for my fine haha... I went into erp without putting my cashcard in... so haiz too bad lah, kana caught so too bad... oh yesterday also went for def riding course, very fun... learned many skills like cornering, one hand riding, adv wet e-braking, its really very useful i would say, haha but i think one hand riding cant be used on my bike haha...

Yesterday wanted to go to suntec... but then wah kaoz all the roads are blocked, got seperated with jj's bike then in the end i cant take it... i juz go str8 to my grandfather's house to rendevouz with my parents...

Oh well gtg man, got a list of things to buy at jp... Haha wanna get a new bag coz i cant ride in with a sling back haha... kkies gtg blog more tonight...

Jamie is hurt...

2005-06-29T08:54:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it man... I went to the carpark at ps... I was going to ps to watch intial D with my friends... We didnt get the tickets so we went back to the carpark to go cine instead... who knows what i saw there? jamie was lying on the floor!!! i was like what the f**k!!! JJ and I quickly picked her up... her windscreen and mirror broke... i was so sad man... who the hell will do such a thing? i couldnt believe someone who knock her... but lucky today i went to the bike shop, i repaired her... she is good as new, gave her a good scrub also haha...

Jamie...

2005-06-25T15:50:00.000+08:00

Haha i've brought Jamie home liao, i bought her yesterday after going with ken to look around, haha she is my new motorbike not any girl or what lah haha... I chose Jamie becoz dunno thats the 1st name that pop into my head, maybe coz i used to have a small size friend called jamie so i call her that loh haha... Aiyoh but yumun say its bimbotic haha... but what the heck i think its sounds nice, or maybe should call her blueberry... hmm i dunno lah if u got suggestion tell me...

Haha she is blue and black in colour... I think she is chio haha, yah lah everyone will think their bike is chio haha... but i was attracted by her cool colour, got blue mah my fav colour haha... i'm superficial eh haha... haha oh what the heck better go sleep liao, got guard duty again haiz... haha yupz...

Blue and black...

2005-06-24T17:10:00.000+08:00

Got an off, so need not book in today, yeah man... today went to buy a cash card and parking coupon liao... very eager rite? haha yeah, tmr will be going down to the shops at alexandra road to see bikes with ken... after much considering of many many many factors, i think i've decided to buy the honda nsr 150 instead of the aprilia rs 125... yeah i know though some ppl feel that aprilia is nice yeah but then money matters lah and i couldnt find any sellers of aprilia... so sorry jiajing to disappoint u haha, i think i'll be going for nsr 150...

Yesterday evening tried ken's nsr 150, its acceleration is cool man... erm abit fast though, so quite scary and of course the akward positioning of the legs on the bike haha... but i think its rather stable and cool... haha oh yeah juz check the amount i've spent for the whole course... haha i spent a total of $418.72 to get this 2b license haha, i think its rather worthwile haha... now hoping to enrol for defensive riding course, i urge bikers to go for this course coz its really interesting and helpful...

haha so hrs more i'll be meeting ken at redhill then go see bike liao... rather eager to get a bike soon... who knows i might buy one straight today lolx... u know i'm predictably unpredictable one, see? so hopefully the shop owner will give me a good price man... then it will be cool man, and we've got a deal... hope to spray my bike blue and black or white bah... yupz so nvm we shall go take a look... haha tmr will be going to somehow celebrate yumun's bday haha... jj say go watch batman, but i watched liao... haha see how lah, will update soon... oh damm btw i got sunday guard duty this week argh... if not i could have go out with... oh well will update my blog tmr i think...

Its over finally, but more have juz begun...

2005-06-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

Haha guess what i passed my tp!!! I was rather in a state of shock when i knew i passed... Coz i tot for sure i would fail liao... I say that becoz i tot i made an immediate failure... but maybe lucky the examiner didnt see or who knows haha it wasn't counted... i was already in the waiting room closing my eyes hoping they would give my result asap so that i can book for another test... i feel that today's performance sux lah... the bike wasnt good at all... but somehow i was like too sad and demoralised to think abt anything when in the waiting room except going back to book the next test... then the examiners came in everyone was like oooo, scared, jittery... haha i was juz siting there stoning...

my tag number was 60... there were 90 students all together... my detail was 57 to 64... so there were like 8 instructors each holding the results to each detail... so as my detail testor came in... he was like saying number 57... when ur number is called means thats it go out to take ur paper and go home haha... so i was waiting, then next he called 58, i was then okie nvm next one... then 59 then i started to get a bit impatient... but somehow in my mind i still hope to pass even though i knew i would fail somehow... but juz as he finished talking to 59, he walked out...

i was like what the heck? where is mine... then the instructor said still got a few more... then the next instructor came in but the ppl who failed iziznt in my detail so that means i've passed... the next thing i knew was the instructor locking the doors saying guys u are the ppl who passed... i was like wah!!! is that possible or what!!! i was msg my friend saying sure fail liao lah, then he was telling me there can be miracles one haha... it was a miracle haha!!! indeed... i was like haha dunnno what to think also lah... juz shocked but yet happy...

so for now its over already... now its time to get a bike liao, hope to get it before the 2nd week of july bah... haha yupz, rather happy now but then still feel the shock of the test result...

I wanna thank my friends who gave me support, ppl like jiajing, yumun, fuji, weiyang, joan, yiquan, jia ming, jeffery, victor, tai hong, han yang and many more... sorry if i never mentioned ur name... i know who u ppl are haha... okie back to camp liao, soon i wont have to walk in anymore... finally... =)

Lychee Martini...

2005-06-20T11:43:00.000+08:00

Haha yesterday went to harry's bar at esplanade to drink with my friends... The drink is good man, esp the lychee martini and some tequila... Yeah and the ambience is real good... Jazz song sang by a guy err i dunno whats his name he seems to be always there though haha... Oh drank quite a lot but luckily still can take it haha...

Haha oh well wednesday is tp liao, time past fast eh... Hmm monday and tuesday is range haha, i love range man, but i dont like to clean rifle haha... anyway its dangerous... oh well hope i'll pass for tp then... I've to do it, i've to pass...

Nothingness Inside...

2005-06-19T02:55:00.000+08:00

Today after i woke up, i feel nothingness... U get it? nothingness is like the feeling of dont wanna do anything... Dont know why... Juz feeling damm sianz lah... Going for driving lesson now then later going for shopping... Feeling abit bored up though...

Some feelings...

2005-06-17T12:15:00.000+08:00

Back home from nitez off... Hmm haven been sleeping well the whole week in camp... Perhaps my tp is coming liao bah, next wed... I juz hate lots of nitez mare... Juz cannot take it anymore, scary eh? Hmm saw lots of ex-pri sch pals, very happy for them, haha everyone looks different liao, look so beautiful, grown up so differently from the way i last remembered... Haha mostly attached liao haha so happy for them... then again i see myself i feel kinda inferior or rather unhappy for myself... I dunno why lah, juz feel that i'm not doing as well as them... U know?

Of course u dont... Haha no lah juz kidding...

Hmm anyway, really hope that i'm gonna pass this wednesday man, if its 100% effort this time i've gonna give 200%... Its very very important man, coz i might not have the same chance to go for test again due to upcoming trainings... Argh thats why i'm so stressed, maybe thats why i get nitemares all the time...

Haha u know what? I get jealous when i see couples... Esp those whose gf is beautiful... I know i've been complaining to jj and yumun haha and they will say ur juz jealous lah!!! haha yeah i'm haha... oh well its that i mean if ur not good looking u cant find a beautiful girlfriend, but its i dunno lah juz jealous lah... haha oh well beautiful girls are snapped up fast haha... But yeah, its always the character that is more important, but somehow come on lah, ppl still look at looks rite? i mean thats human... we want the better stuff, better life, better quality things... Its not wrong if u are lyke that but if its discussed in words, like now, obviously ppl will comment that thats not true or what lah... but then they themselves still practice that, most prob i think...

Hmm lots of stuff going thru my head now haha, know that gonna get nitemares again liao, but then i'm not afraid liao, i've got used to it haha... Juz get scared or shock before u wake up, then recover haha then repeat the cycle again lolx... Hmm oh well time is running out... Will blog soon again...

Life is unfair...

2005-06-13T09:45:00.000+08:00

Oh oops very long never go update my blog liao haha... Oh well that day went to china black with sam... very fun... saw zi xuan and jeffery... haha luckily saw them, if not we 2 will be very bored haha... haha that day didnt drink much, but dancing was fun haha, had lots of fun... Zi xuan's magic tricks was cool man, professional sia... haha oh well... that day sam told me somthing that made me tot of smth that life is rather unfair...

Hmm do u realise that when u club, when there are pretty girls, lots of guys will go dance with them or rather try to get their attention... That is if they are pretty... i mean who would take a 2nd look at those not good looking ones? i mean think about it... those pretty girls get to choose the guys they want, they can do anything they want so long the likes them and those guys will listen to them... what about those non-good looking ones, no matter how much they dress up or make up the guys wont be attracted to them... i'm sure they too wanna find a cool and handsome guy... but what they get usually wont be what they wished for... however for a guy its rather different, even though u might not be good looking u can get a beautiful girl if u managed to melt her heart... yeah i know it doesnt work all the time but then, there are such things... so life is unfair izint it... Tell me if it isnt...

Hmm oh well haha i booked my bike tp on 22nd the wednesday liao... i wanna pass man, do it once do it good... then haha hope to get my bike soon haha, got my eyes on some bikes liao... oh well haha hope i'll do well... =)

Final no more?

2005-06-06T18:55:00.000+08:00

Today had lots of mixed feelings...

I passed my final evaluation liao, was rather lucky actually got 18 points juz nice... was rather happy but not so much as the previous 7.01 pass... dunno why, maybe today was feeling quite tired, thats why didnt care much abt today's pract 8.01... but oh well still managed to pass, made some silly mistakes, i think today my riding was horrible, made lots of mistake that i shouldnt have haiz... oh well what the heck, pass can liao, although its marginal one...

So by right now, i can register for tp liao... but can u believe it? the record shows that i haven attended their theory lesson... so i've to clear my 4 lessons 1st man... what the hell!!! this is so unreasonable lah... i've already cleared my riding theory test and final evaluation and they want me to go to the lessons? they told me that its compulsory... i was like damn sianz lah after i heard that there is no way but to attend the lesson... they said that the orientation brief would have told us, but i remember theres no such statement or stand that we have to take lessons... this is so screwed up lah...
but i cant blame them lah, i oso assumed too much liao coz i heard from my other friends that they need no go for lessons coz they aint the same riding centre as mine, so diff policy... haiz so now what to do? no choice loh, juz go for that 4 lesson liao...
haha so today i went to booked all the 4 lesson at one shot for this week... hopefully it will go well, i mean i'll sleep well thru the lesson lah hee hee... then i'm ready to go registery for tp or i would say the computer will let me go... i tot i've saved time and money... now i've to waste 4 x $7.88 that is = dont know lah, 30 smth dollars... haiz, so much money wasted...
Haiz oh well going back to camp today afternoon liao haiz, will say more when i'm back bah haiz... juz damn frustrated now... what to do, life's full of obstacles...

Final Evaluation...

2005-06-05T18:17:00.000+08:00

I hope i pass my final evaluation ah... =)

Yeah i made it...

2005-06-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

Haha was so delighted yesterday after i passed my 7.01 finally... yesterday almost failed becoz of the student in front of me... i dunno what she was doing lah? moving left and right on the single lane and she was damm slow... i mean i'm not encouraging her to speed but her speed could get ppl into trouble... oh well nvm lah, sometimes when u follow the wrong person behind its rather dangerous... so the next one for me is 8.01 one liao... its the final revision and circuit evaluation before i could go for tp... that one hmm i hope i dont fail lah... i think its a 50/50... if i perform well then i can make it... they always say if u can pass circuit evalutation then u can pass the final one... hmm i hope what they say is true lah... i cant afford to waste anymore time and money... i dont wanna slow down my progress...

haha later jj and yumun will becoming to my house to stay, haha i think it'll be fun... jj's gonna cook lunch haha and yumun's gonna bake some chicken haha... oh well maybe can go catch H2G2... yeah till then i'll see about it... will blog soon maybe tonight haha... =)

U-turn...

2005-06-04T03:30:00.000+08:00

Oh man later its time for my U-turn again man... Juz got that stupid recalling of me failing... This time i better make sure that i dont fail man... I cannot fail man, if not i'll be wasting my time and money and its gonna delay me of getting my license soon... Oh well, i'll try my best then... I think i got writer's block... I got alot of things i wanna write but juz dont know where to start lah... hmm oh well maybe tonight bah...

2005-05-29T03:07:00.000+08:00

Basics

1. Full Name: Tay Chek Yong Alvin

2. Your nick name: No nick name

3. Birthday: 20th March 1985

4. Place of Birth: Singapore

5. Sign: Pisces

6. Male or Female: Male

7. Grade: Trying to complete grade 8 piano now haha

8. School: Grad from School of Military Intelligence

9. Occupation: NSF army

10. Residence: jurong west and block 223 of pasir laba camp

11. Screen Name(s): Chek Yong

__Your Appearence___

12. Hair Color: Black, but looking forward to streak some cool colours...

13. Hair Long or Short: Short, haha u think army can keep long hair?

14. Eye Color: Brown

15. Skin Color: Tan bah haha everyday training under the sun yeah!!!

16. Height: 1.73m

17. Weight: 60kg haha light weight... depends lah, +/- 2kg haha...

18. Shoe Size: US size 8

19. Braces?: Nope...

20. Glasses?: got 2, 1 framless and the other black nerdy 1 for chiong sua in the forest haha... If

not i'll wear lense out loh...

21. Piercings: Dont have, but maybe wanna get 1, or maybe not haha...

22. Tattoos: haha nope dont have...

23. Righty or Lefty? : Lefty...

___Your 'Firsts'___

24. First Kiss: I dunno, was it my mum or dad? the one that kiss me 1st when i was born...

25. First B.F/ G.F: Haha i dont have any gf b4 haiz...

26. First buddy: Yugui bah, she is in denmark now haha...

27. First Award: oh won 4th in the softball compeition in pri 6...

28. First Sport u joined?: Softball

29. First pet: Rabbit...

30. First Vacation: Langkawi, Malaysia...

31. First Concert: Played in military band when i was in primary school.

___ Favorites___

33. Movie: Lotsa and lotsa them! Star Wars, i'm a star wars fan...

34. TV Show: Got no time or chance to watch tv in the army haiz

35. Color: Blue, White, Silver...

36. Band: I dunno

37. Song: Lotsa them. Some clubbing songs are nice too...

38. Food: Alot lah...

39. Drink: Alot lah...

40. Candy: Seldom eat candy...

41. Sport To Play: Street soccer, badminton, bowling...

42. Sport To Watch: Soccer bah...

43. Clothings: Jeans, shirt, t-shirt what stuff can a guy wear more?

45. School Program: I dunno...

46. Animal: Dog, puppies, hamster, cat, monkey, penguin...

47. Book: dun read books...

48. Magazine: dun read magazine...

___Currently___

49. Eating: puffs...

50. Drinking: Fresh milk...

51. Typing: Doh!

52. Online?: Doh!

53. Listening To: Some tv show now haha oops eh i said i didnt watch tv rite? i listen...

54. Thinking About: not reporting for guard duty tmr...

55. Wanting To: get my 2b bike license asap...

56. Watching: The lappie screen...

57. Wearing: my shorts, about to go out...

___Your Future___

58. Want Kids?: Yes

59. Want to Get Married?: Yes

60. Careers in Mind: Scientific researcher...

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

67. Cute or pretty: Pretty and cute the best haha...

68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes and lips haha

69. Hugs or Kisses: BOTH hugs and kisses haha weeeeee...

70. Short or Tall: Not too short and not taller than me can liao haha...

71. Easygoing or serious: Depends on the occasion... appropriate behavior...

72. Romantic or Spontaneous: Both haha...

73. Fatty or Skinny: Juz nice more to the slim haha...

74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive...

75. Hook-up or Relationshiop : Relationship...

76. Sweet or Caring: Caring and sweet haha...

77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Both i also don't like!

___Have You Ever___

78. Kissed a Stranger: Nope!

79. Drank Alcohol: Yeah taste nice... but i'm not an addict haha...

80. Smoked: Yeah tried before, but dunno why ppl like to smoke not nice one trust me!

81. Ran Away From Home: Nope...

82. Broken a Bone: Nope, i hope that doesnt happen...

83. Got an X-ray: Yes

84. Broken Someones Heart: I'm always the one victim haha.

85. Broke Up With Someone: I never had a relationship how to break up with someone haiz...

86. Turned Someone Down: Yes...

87. Cried When Someone Died: Yeah... Cried my eyes out...

88. Cried At School: Yeah when i was in nursery school, i was so scared...

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: Yes, i suppose so.

90. Miracles: Yes of course.

91. Love At First Sight: Yeah haha...

92. Ghosts: Yes, dun wanna meet them thanx

93. Aliens: Maybe have lah but not so evil and destructive as the movie ones... i believe they are equally puzzled like us wondering? is there any aliens out there too... =)

94. Angels: Yes

95. Heaven: No...

96. Hell: No...

97.Yourself: Yeah, thats the 1st step u should do...

98. Kissing on The First Date: Of course not lah...

99. Horoscopes: Yeah

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone/thing U Want But u Know uCan't Have? : Of course lah... Its so many loh... =)

Oh man 1st time...

2005-05-28T15:43:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it lah, i failed my bike lesson today... 7.01 oh man, i failed becoz of U-turn... i cant believe it so sad now... feel so lousy haiz... hope i'll pass the next one then haiz... juz haiz...

Love and Hate...

2005-05-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

Past few days wasnt feeling well so i didnt blog sorry... Doctor said i got some viral fever... Got 1 day mc from doctor so gonna go back camp tonight... Oh well today i've watched Star Wars 3 for the 2nd time haha, i'm a star wars fan lah haha... Star wars three is damn cool lah...

Oh today managed to chat with her, i met her on friendster, think she is quite nice... very happy chatting with her... oh anyway haha yeah friday got a lesson on 7.01... that day passed 6.01 liao, very happy wor... hope 7.01 would be good... i need to strive hard, 2 more lessons and i'll be ready for the test...

Heard some disturbing news from my friend... i realise my friend was talking behind our back about me and some other friends... He better watch out...

Which star wars character am I?

2005-05-23T13:13:00.000+08:00

You scored as Anakin Skywalker.

Anakin Skywalker

75%

Darth Vader

69%

Yoda

61%

C-3PO

58%

General Grievous

56%

Clone Trooper

56%

Chewbacca

50%

Mace Windu

47%

Obi Wan Kenobi

47%

R2-D2

47%

Padme Amidala

44%

Emperor Palpatine

28%

Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you?
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Experiences...

2005-05-22T03:20:00.000+08:00

Oh well man finally i'm back from the 3 days 2 nitez stay in the forest... It sucks, it rained everyday, the ground is muddy and i've to stand in the rain...

Day 1: the rained in the early morning...
ground is wet, cant sit have to stand for more than 8 hrs...
the place is infested with mosquitos, got bitten all over...

Day 2: our hiding point got lots of ants... i didnt realise i was siting on an ant's nest... got bitten
again haiz...
full of mosquitos again...
rained in the late morning, floor is wet...

Day 3: the place was infested with lots of mosquitos, more than day 1 and 2...
it rained heavily in the late morning again, suddenly but by that time managed to be
rescued by my toner...

Oh well this is one of the worst experience of outfield i had man... Anyway glad is over liao...
I hope...
Later going to watch Star Wars with my friends liao cant wait man... Kkies i'll update again tonight...
I hope...

I'm the pilot...

2005-05-16T06:20:00.000+08:00

You are the pilot.

Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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Decisions and orders...

2005-05-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

I'm back from a screwed up week... really damm screwed up, so much outfield and stuff... i was back juz 4 hrs ago, this week late book out and expect us to book in at 9pm on sunday wah lau what the heck... Oh anyway this week i recieved a damn unreasonable order passed down from higher personel...

One of my officers got involved in a bike accident during one of the days this week... becoz of that the higher ppl passed down an order that we are not allowed to ride our bikes in from now on... i was like what the heck! where got such orders one... motorcycles are civilian stuff and how could they ban us from riding our bikes in... the thing is that its not the whole camp its only our battalion... I feel that this order should be overruled and there should be such a case... what about those ppl who have already bought their bikes, who is gonna pay for their road tax and insurance and cost and stuff... and how about ppl like me who are intending to get a bike? and my lessons have been up to half way... i hope that the board will seriously talk things out and uplift such ban... i think its a too drastic ban already, ridiculous...

I find that this scenerio is like ur not allowed to wear black colour jeans to camp becoz its not safe and ppl cant see u... juz becoz someone got into an accident and was wearing a pair of black pants no one is then allowed to wear black pants to camp... izint it the same as the bike scenerio? its funny in this example i gave which i think its equally funny in that case for the bike... yes we know that its for safety but dont u think this is too drastic already...

Oh well tmr morning gonna register my pdl liao, then finally can book lesson stage 6 lesson 6.01... was hoping i could clear some lessons this week, we'll see how it goes bah, hopefully there are slots left haha... I juz left 3 lessons and i hope i can clear them by juz attending once for each... Not much time left liao...

Yes, I made it...

2005-05-09T11:03:00.000+08:00

Yupz its good news, i passed the 5.02 liao... hmm haha was damn nervous lah... at 1st got 2 rounds of warm up, i made so many mistakes man i think he got a bad impression of me... haha then i was like damn frustrated with myself... I was like haiz how can this happen to me, then luckily when the evluation really started i managed to clear them up haha... Oh well its a good experience, now at least i have more confidence in such tests... hmm now i cant book any slots for stage 6 liao... 6.01 need Qdl haiz, so saturday gtg down to bbdc to get the valid pdlm then can book sianz... haha at least tentatively now left 3 lessons more to final test... Hope to get my license soon... Oh well its back to army liao haiz, hope this week will be good...

Nervous damn nervous...

2005-05-09T03:25:00.000+08:00

Haha juz now went for pillion riding 5.01 haha kinda okie lah... but sucks man coz it rained... early in the morning heavy rain can u believe it man? my shoes are now the new version of aqua nike... gonna change shoe liao, later i luckily managed to book a lesson of 5.02 at 1355 man, quite lucky oh man... 5.02 is an evaluation lesson means if i passed i'll get a pdl to proceed to stage 6 which is public road if not i'm gonna stuck here... i'm damn nervous now lah, i wont wanna fail, it will hold my progress back if i fail... oh man juz very nervous now...

wishlist:
1. not to fall of the plank...
2. not to strike kerbs and pylons...
3. remember to check blind spots...
4. no vehicles hindering my performance when i'm turning out of the road...
5. my wet e-brake performance will be good...
6. my right leg dont land on the road...
7. not to be nervous...
8. i wanna pass 5.02 juz 1st time...

Hope to hear good news bah... haiz okie gtg damm scared now...

I'm back from movie...

2005-05-08T15:01:00.000+08:00

Juz now went to watch Kingdom of Heaven with my friends... Haha actually not bad lah 3.5/5 bah, i tot it will be sucky but den it proved me wrong lah, actually the action is good and not those dumb 1 - 1 fighting scenes got tactics one, haha oops i hope i didnt give anything anyway haha... Oh well saw alot of couples again, got one extremely loving couple siting beside me... I was like awww, dont u juz hate that coz u aint the one, jealousy is inmate in humans...

Dont u juz want someone to hug u when ur feeling down...
Dont u juz want to know that someone somewhere in the world is particularly missing u when she doesnt sees u...
Dont u juz want someone to give u encouragement when u're feeling all is gone...
Dont u juz want someone to be there for u...
Dont u juz want someone to give u a conformation that everything is alright even though u know the people dont see to it...
Dont u juz want someone to care for u more than anyone else...
Dont u juz want to know that she is lucky to have u and someone in the world do cherish u after all...
Dont u juz want...
But it doesnt come for me...

Another week has passed...

2005-05-08T02:30:00.000+08:00

I'm back from 1 week of hectic army outfield training... I heard that next week gonna be siong, next next week gonna be siong, it juz cant stop... the whole of May gonna be tough man, until june as they promised, liars promised... Oh well yesterday completed 4.02 liao, finally proceed to the next stage liao very happy... sunday managed to book 5.01 thats good, hope i'll still pass haha... later gonna watch kingdom of heaven with my friends, hope it'll be good i dun really like these type of ancient fighting shows haha except lord of the rings bah... maybe it'll prove me wrong... nevermind i think will come back tonight to update provided i'm not shag haha...

[May] I love u...

2005-05-02T04:30:00.000+08:00

Haha today is May the 1st liao... Time flies huh, left 318 more days to my freedom... Yes i know its still alot but looking back, 469 days has passed since I 1st enlisted... Oh well, but yah lah still got a long way to go... Haha i passed my car advance theory liao, not bad for a second time haiz... Haha but now i managed to booked my driving test date which is on 21st september, 5 more months haha, actually is very near loh... 1 week once means like say ard 16 more lesson for me to practice before i can go for test... hopefully i will pass the 1st time...
Yest i also went for riding theory test, oh man i hope i dont fail... If not my bike practicals will be affected haiz... now i'm at stage 4.02 liao... left 6 more lessons before i go for tp, that is if i dont screwed up any of the practs haha... Oh yest watched interpreter not bad, i'm rather surprised... i didnt expect it to be nice haha coz due to some comments made by friends haha but then the show impressed me, they got this mystery element haha yeah... U should go watch, but its rather diff to understand the whole plot... but u juz have to slowly figure out haha... oh well i'm going out liao, now going with JJ to watch triple x 2... haha yupz blog in tonite bah...

2005-04-30T14:19:00.000+08:00

You scored as Musical/Rhythmic. You are sensitive to sounds in your environment, enjoy music and prefer listening to music when you study or read. You learn best through melody and music. People like you include singers, conductors, composers, and others who appreciate the various elements of music.

Musical/Rhythmic

100%

Intrapersonal

79%

Logical/Mathematical

75%

Visual/Spatial

75%

Interpersonal

68%

Verbal/Linguistic

68%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

61%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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2005-04-30T14:12:00.000+08:00

You scored as Earlobe Piercing. Awwww aren't you cute with your little goody-goody attitude and what not. Maybe you should stop being so freaking nice and go and burn something. I mean seriously.

Earlobe Piercing

100%

Tongue Piercing

80%

Nipples

70%

Nose Piercing

60%

Dirty Piercings

50%

Labret Piercing

50%

Cartilage Piercing

50%

Belly Button Piercing

40%

Lip Piercing

30%

What Piercing Are You?
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Oh man...

2005-04-25T06:59:00.000+08:00

I think i'm in deep shit... I've overspent lately, now i'm trying to recover the money liao... oh man... time is against me... hope to get my bike by july... and if this money doesnt come in time then thats it man... oh well haha u juz gotta save if u want smth badly... hmm gonna work out my sums...
Juz now cleared my table liao, feels good and neat hahaha... oh well tonight going back to camp liao, sux man... haha at least from today i left abt hmm 325 days more... then i know i will be happier by then haha i think... hmm yeah so i better start saving man...

U tell me...

2005-04-24T15:59:00.000+08:00

Haha juz came back from movie with jj... Guess who??? haha damm funny lah, the whole cinema is laughing like mad haha... today was rather jealous, why? coz i see a lot of couples with beautiful gfs haha... i know sour grapes eh? haha but i dont care i'm juz jealous lah... sometimes u see the guy like not really good looking but then u see the gf really very beautiful u will feel jealous loh... i dont get it, since i'm equally bad looking why dont i have a beautiful gf too... i'm sure many single guys will think of that one loh... oh well what to do... life is unfair...

Oh man i cant believe it...

2005-04-24T03:21:00.000+08:00

Oh man i cant believe that i missed a chance of my bike lesson today... someone threw his slot out at around 11+ and the lesson was at 12.05pm... I checked at 10.30am and 11.45am but haiz too late liao... oh man i'm juz very sianz diao now... help anyway gtg soon...

Feelings???

2005-04-18T10:00:00.000+08:00

Oh well going to book in tonight again liao, sianz lah as usual... Today completed lesson 4 of my bike practical liao, hmm quite happy lah, 1 step closer to get a license liao... cant wait man but gotta be patient haha... Yesterday i went to watch Sahara haha not Samara... Its the desert (dessert) one, its a nice show man... Haha its smth like national treasure lah haha... Oh well 1 more month star wars 3 is coming liao that show muz be watched man...

Do u realise there are more and more couples in singapore haha i mean young ones lah... seems like everyone is getting attached liao haha... wherever i go like buses, shopping centres, clubs, movie theatre and many more lah... hmm i rather jealous lah dont know why haha... yah lah maybe i dont have gf mah haha... but i think its really amazing to see many couples around haha... even so many of my friends are getting attached haha, haiz dont know what to say liao lah... kkies update my blog another time...

The Night Is Still Young...

2005-04-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

Alrite cant sleep in the middle of the night... Have been trying to look at pictures of my dream bike haha... Hmm i cant really decide on what model should I buy, but i've rather decided on either Kawasaki Krr 150 or Honda Nsr 150 haha... Hmm oh well haha still deciding thou... Haha i've been always hoping to get a bike, since young bah, it was a passing thot but its like smth that I feel that it could happen soon... It started with being recruited into my vocation recon in the army, we guys got to learn bikes... So I'm now rather stuck with an SAF bike license which doesnt allow me to ride commercial bikes... So i've decided to get a civilian license...

Hmm why do i wanna get a bike :
1. I think it saves time... Needless to explain rite?

2. Transport is cheaper as in the cost compared to taking buses, mrt and taxi most impt...

3. I can go anywhere I want anytime coz its like a transport is available anytime haha...

4. Can travel to places faster, hmm okie lets not talk abt speeding alrite, i obey the traffic rules haha =P... I'm saying generally the speed of the bike is fast rite compared to bus or mrt?

5. Ur friend can come along with u, like as a company... Hmm meetings will not be late as u can ferry ur friend around haha rite rite rite??? think about how diff is for some ppl to be on time in meetings... So the best thing is to go pick them up, hmm it comes with a price lah... that is petrol fee hahaha... =P

6. U wont be held up by congestions esp those heavy traffic coz the bike can weave thru the traffic... not always may i state as it can be quite dangerous at time... u wont wanna pay someone's car side mirror huh???

7. Hmm it is convenient for me to get to camp esp... Left about 1 more yr till i ord liao... But then the distance from my camp to home is rather near... but the transport sucks man, coz the buses come damn late all the time... the omni buses that ferry us to the nearest mrt cost $1 each time, from then on i need to take a bus back or mrt... okie using simple calculation say:

if i can book out everyday... according to statistics, my friend uses like $13 dollars on petrol each 2 weeks... Say if i can book out everyday... means that me the omni bus fare will cost me $10 already... okie and if i take bus home everyday which cost me $0.80... that means the SBS bus fare will cost me ard say $8... Haha means $18 bucks can u imagine that... means i save $5 for transport each week... u might think $5 dollars is nothing yes yes but how about the return trip back to camp everyday??? wouldn't that be like saving $23... hmm i rather lucky, coz my dad fetches me back to camp, now izint car petrol more expensive and the consumption is higher???

Yes i know actually everything i analysed can be easily rebutted by the word call safety...
Yes i know that bikes aint safe becoz yah lah u know lah all those reports u see...
Yes i know that bikes aint safe becoz ur the one who is shielding the bike instead like a car shielding u...
Yes i know that bikes aint safe becoz even thou ur the one who is riding safe and well doesnt mean others will which could affect u...

All these are the common comments that ppl give... oh btw if u do have a comment pls post it to me... hmm alrite, in the process of learning bike, we were thought to anticipate hazards like illegal crossing and vehicles speeding... in SAF we were thought how to manuevre thru bad terrains and even know extra skills on safe riding... Yes i wont agree that we are skillful and could prevent accidents... Who can 100% say that rite??? But i'm feel that yes all the good things that comes out from the bike does not justify the safety for our lives... But i feel that as a rider, sometimes u juz know that u can control the bike... okie i know u might say this is like so over-confidence... I cant gaurentee that surely nothing will happen, but i can say that if we are alert and more careful and practice self-disclipine (elaborated shortly) our chances of survival on the road will be greatly increased...

Self discipline, my definition of self dicipline is :
1. Dont use ur bike when its raining or u know the floor is wet which has juz rained...
2. Dont speed when its not safe, if its safe then speed...
3. If u have a pillion, ride safely coz its not abt u... its about the pillion...
4. Use ur instinct, if u feel that the day is not right for u, maybe u should use other transport...
5. Try not to use the bike if u know ur going to hang out really late...
6. Of course the usual dont drink and drive... oh btw if get caught will be really in deep shit man i promise u...
7. Do not anyhow cut lanes if u think its not safe, dont anyhow squeeze thru as u think, as said juz now haha yeah...

Hmm so roughly thats what i wanna say about getting a bike... Hmm for now i've to get my civilian license 1st, haiz wonder when, hopefully by july bah... Hmm whoever got comments on my topic Savety or Safety, pls write ur comments to me thanks... Okie gtg sleep liao damm tired le hahaha... Will blog another time bah...

Yupz i'm back...

2005-04-11T08:50:00.000+08:00

Oh well sorry that i didnt update my blog, was busy for quite a while... Oh well life lately is still alrite, i think... Finally got a gold that day, so happy... Its like u know somehow u can do it, but u juz need to prove it... But i'm rather more interested in getting the $200 haha...

Hmm lately i'm planning alot in getting my bike... Today started my 1st lesson at bbdc, oh no the 1st thing i did when i go there is i dropped my bike, shit man... But later on its okie liao... haha was hoping that i'll get my liscense by july then can get a bike... Have been planning it for weeks liao, yeah man, cant wait haha... Haiz juz hope i can get it soon... Oso too i'm co-currently learning car, oh man my cash is going down... but no choice lah...

I watched pacifier that day haha, its very funny, u should go watch too if u haven... Now waiting for star wars 3 haha... its gonna be a hit liao, if u have watched the trailer u know its damm cool... Hmm i dont know what to write liao maybe will continue tonight... till then...

Haha my blog is back again...

2005-03-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

Oh well hey there i've decided to re-publish a new blog liao... I had a blog previously but due to some stuff I closed it down... But haha i'm back, this is my new blog haha... For those who dont know me... To sum up, me currently in the army, NSF going to ord in ard 1yrs time haha, still quite long eh... looking forward to go study in NUS... juz turned 20yrs old not long ago... thats roughly all lah haha...

Haha juz came back, quite tired now, its 3.40am liao... what a day, this afternoon still got driving lesson... Watched Miss Con 2, hmm i would say Miss Con 1 is better lah, maybe 2 stars out of 5 hahaha...

Hmm to me, life is full of ups and downs... U juz hate it when its down or falling... Sometimes I feel that maybe its army that made my life feel so down... 2.5 yrs of army stradegically placed in the age of 19, 20 and 21... Oh man, feel like my youth is being eaten up... Okie haha anyway i'm quite tired liao, will continue the post tonight bah...